We’re fast approaching the day we get to meet our two little humans, and with just two weeks to go, I think it’s time for me to tell you how thankful I am for all you have done for me and for us, our growing little family.

Where do I even begin?

Without you, I’m not sure how I would have survived the past couple of years. You have shown me so much more love than on occasions, I’ve probably deserved. I’ve lost count of the times you’ve had to pick me up from the bathroom floor when I was too weak to stand, held me when I’ve cried a sea of tears for the loss of our first baby and the multiple unsuccessful treatments that followed, or stroked my hair when I was vomiting for the umpteenth time when hospitalised with OHSS.

You really have stood by me and more throughout this whole entire, bumpy journey. But of course, this hasn’t just been my journey. It’s been yours too. It’s been both of ours and there is no one else I’d rather have gone through the rough and now the beautiful times with.

You have always stood so brave through the worst, with your head held high and focus always on moving forward. Yet, I knew that deep within, you were hurting just as much as I was. I could always see the pain etched between your brows and sometimes the dampness of your eyes told me you too needed to be held. It was in those moments that I felt closest to you with an urge to protect you and to love you more than I knew capable.

But look at us now, my darling. We survived it, and we are just thirteen days away from greeting our two longed for and very much-loved babies. Your son and your daughter.

Half you, half me… our dreams coming true.

I’ve loved watching you grow in confidence and happiness since the day we were told by the midwife that our beta test was positive and with each positive scan, week after week. It’s what has made my pregnancy experience even more special. I’ve loved how protective you have been and how giddy you got when you first went shopping on your own for some clothes for your son and daughter. I’ve loved that you’ve walked with me through this pregnancy, experiencing not just the most amazing and precious moments but also the anxious moments too, like waking up with me every single night when sometimes I just needed yet another bathroom break! I don’t think you’ve slept much at all in these last 9 months come to think of it…and for that, you’re my superhero.

The three of us, but especially me, are so incredibly lucky to have you in our lives. With you, I feel forever protected, loved and strong. With you, I know I can get through my worst days if they’re ever to strike again. I can’t wait to become a mummy with you by myside.

You, my husband, are going to be the most amazing daddy to our babies. With your big strong arms holding them close and keeping them safe, they’ll know nothing except for unconditional love and happiness.

Here is to us, to our next chapter together, building memories to last forever.

Love you silly amounts, Lee.

Yours forever, xx